With my birthday approaching, I’ve been thinking about where the Path has taken me in the last. I put down roots, which is something that, even as a child, I haven’t had. I am happy for the first time since I was a child and although I’m now disabled, but not unable. It just so happens that my joints like to eat themselves, stupid cannibals....grumble grumble....anyway, I don't let something like that stand in my way of being who I am. I try to find all the little things that help keep me happy. My Cup runs over! It’s about damn time!
I’m smart, but not very educated; I’ve been called wise and crazy in the same sentence. I love to laugh and sometimes will make a complete dork of myself in order to make someone else laugh. I’m exocentric, poor, and your typical Aquarius which means I am friendly (though can be shy in groups) a humanitarian, honest, loyal, original, inventive, independent and intellectual.
Floating through Darkness….
Sounds great? Wait, since I’m honest to a fault….Intractable (stubborn), contrary, perverse, unpredictable, unemotional and detached. I find that I struggle with emotions and intimacy, I’ll not stand for anyone being taken advantage of anyone else, nor do I like feeling pinned down…to anything or anyone . . . and I find no use for senseless or purposeless extravagance. I like my personal space, and though I’ve an intense desire to communicate, I can be rude and tactless if I feel I’m not being heard. I can be morbid, and have an internal draw to darker thinks….
Though I dwell in Darkness, I am a contradiction, for the light of my soul is my beacon. The Darkness need not feel abysmal if we but embrace the light - -the explosion of color will nearly blind you……
I like rainbows, butterflies, fairies, dragons, dreams fascinate me, mysticism is an on going study as is Celtic Wisdom and I live within my means despite temptation. I can be shy, sensitive, gentle and patient or enthusiastic and lively. I’m strong willed and have strong convictions that I will fight for and a non-conformist. Also, far-sighted and innovative, I generally am with out prejudice and can be quite tolerant of other’s point of view. I’m romantic, practical, personable, likeable and the perfect mixture of caring concern and cool detachment. I’ll go out of my way to help someone when needed but generally don’t get emotionally involved.
So! If you have made it this far, then perhaps I haven’t frightened you off! LOL
What I am looking for is someone who is patient enough to understand the type of relationship I need.
You must be open minded, honest, patient, kind and weird. Yes, Weird. I am Queen of Weird….surely there is someone of equal weirdness somewhere.….Oh, Geeks are very sexy!
OK, OK, I know I don’t sound like a “catch”, oh well, I’m me and I’m not all that bad. Give me a chance and you’ll find I’m kind of cool in my own dark, demented way…
Hope to hear from you soon, thank you for taking the time to read my essay.