Written as of 4/13
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These are some of the questions I ask myself as I lay in bed wondering where is that right one...
Do we believe loving someone means owning them? Do we believe that ownership is the reason someone should "behave"? Do we believe that all the expectations, conditions, and underlying threats of "you better act right or else" keep one honest and true? Do we believe that we can have meaningful relationships with people who have not defined nor live by the integrity of his or her higher self? What of unconditional love? Or does love look like, feel like, and operate as enslavement? Do we believe that the more control we put on someone the safer we are? What of TRUST and LOVE?
Now I had some good experiences and some really bad ones but at the end of the day no female seemed to get who I really am. This is me as simply as I can possibly explain: I am the guy who will move to another state and drop everything to be with the woman of my dreams, I am the type that wants to be home with you on a Friday night cuddled up with a movie and some ice cream while you rest your head on my chest and just talk about everything till we pass out. I am the type who will spoil you when you deserve it and be stern when you need some rock to lean on thru troubled days. Most of all I am that guy who you always wondered is it possible to find a guy who will like me for me and not what I look like. That's truly me in a nutshell but like an onion I have many more layers but to get there it takes time and patience.