I would like to make one thing clear. I am a bigger woman. I am in the process of losing weight and getting back into shape. All my pictures are within the last few days or weeks. If you can't handle me big you can't enjoy me when I'm smaller.
I am sarcastic, outspoken, stubborn, loyal , moody and hard headed, a thinker, a dreamer and an artist. I love philosophy, poetry, psychology and discussion. I love to sing and to dance whether I excell at either is another question. Loyalty and respect are two integral character traits I look for in a friend, I respect chivalry and honesty above most things so they are qualities I try to both eminate and surround myself with.
I will always speak my mind and tell you the hard truth if you ask for it and most often if you don't( I'm working on the mental filter). I love animals, the forest, the ocean, music, art, and nature, people who can carry on an indepth conversation one minute and make me laugh the next. I am intense, silly, passionate about way too much, I love to dress up according to my mood- so I do not fall into any style catagory (nor do I appreciate being put in one). I tend to never stop thinking, (and too quickly at that). I am reclusive yet social, loud and extremely animated ( or so I'm always told), private, moral, sensitive,strong, contradictory and eccentric. I don't like labels, small minds, superficial friendships, people who are programmed or at least refuse to question programming..
I really think that for me, when it comes to finding my ideal man, its more than just about having a car and a job or a house. Its more about whats in the mind and heart for me. I want a man that looks at life as a pile of clay. He knows that life is what you make it and when you make a mistake just knead it out and start over, learning from his mistakes. he has to be someone that "does" instead of "talking about doing". Says what he means and means what he says. Knows who he is and never lets someone bring him down. Walks with confidence and talks with tenacity. possesses a manliness that will assure his wife of her safety with him. speaks for those who can't. work towards a career not at a job. understands the value and strength of his words and the fragilty of a woman's heart. i think a good man will have a car, house and a job even if he doesnt now he will if he's the kind of man that wants to live a life of purpose because he knows that a good man takes care of his own. he's strong enough for the whole world to be on his shoulders but is sensitive enough to let a woman into his heart