On first glance when asked to describe yourself many people find it a difficult thing to do and have a certain dread in trying to do it. It’s the worst job interview question. A total stranger asks you to tell them about yourself, and you want to come off as amazing but at the same time believable. I know reading profiles on here I see a few women usually don’t answer the question and some come right out and say “I am not good at talking about myself.” And guys? I have no idea what they are saying on here so maybe one of you ladies could let me know.. ha ha. I realized awhile back that my introduction here was not spectacular so I took awhile one Sunday to make it so. I take the approach of telling you what other people, friends, relatives, coworkers have said about me throughout my life. And as you sit back and look at these experiences you come to an understanding of what made you who you are. I am a unique person in that I am both intellectual and rough around the edges. It all started early. I did well in school but I am unfortunately a natural introvert. My best friend in college remarked to me one day that I take things to the extreme. It took awhile to make sense. I was a clutzy chubby kid but I liked roughing around and playing sports. I got my butt kicked initially at pee wee football but worked at it and by the end of high school I was recruited to play division III football. These experiences made me make a lifetime habit of exercise. My mind has certain aptitudes to it that allowed me to do well in school, especially in literature and the social sciences. I was accepted at a prestigious college I probably could not afford, but I was determined to attend. There was one summer I worked in a dingy, dirty factory over 70 hours a week to make it all happen. I studied so hard that next fall semester every night, thinking to myself how I would never want a life like that and using it for my motivation.. “If you don’t do well, that factory will be your future.” It worked because I made Dean’s List that fall. However, this same trait of mine has some pitfalls. People like me have a tendency to beat ourselves up when something doesn’t work as planned. It is easy to fall into a depression spiral. The only explanation we can proffer is that what we faced was an impossible situation. I have had a couple long term relationships over the years which I cherished but as we all have experienced were not meant to be. This feeling can burn in one’s heart for a long time and lead to many conflicting emotions and feelings. It can develop into a reluctance to not know anyone else on so deep a level ever again. But as they say time does heal old wounds and we long again for companionship again. I don’t take people close to me for granted or do not appreciate them. If anything in a future relationship I hope to be so attracted, connected and attached to my partner that they feel that I worship them.. Again, the tendency to go to the extreme, but I would think that it what real love is and what we all search for and want. People who have known me throughout my life would tell you about my remarkable sense of humor. As a direct quote, a coworker wrote about me “he is so damn funny sometimes and he is not even trying to be.” My niece once sent me a birthday card with the line in it “able to make me laugh uncontrollably at the drop of a word.”
So I hope I have made it worth your while to spend time reading this introduction. They ask as the second part to talk about who I am looking for, but I think after reading this, you will know who you are….