What do you want most from your companion? I can assure you that no one guy can do, or know, or have experienced it all. Good looks and charm can oppose depth and honesty, exceeding confidence can negate humility and sensibility, financial security can be the adversary of generosity and kindness, intellectual genius the nemesis of faith, physical prowess the saboteur of psychological discernment, familiar loyalties the antagonist of individual growth, discipline the rival of self-expression and creativity, culinary artistry the death of the waistline, etc. So realizing that you will not find everything that you seek in any one partner likely, what do you desire most? What, if anything are you unwilling to sacrifice or settle on
Some of my own strengths, talents and gifts include the following
I am strong willed, resilient and driven to improve myself. I have humility, am remorseful and conscientious. I am sensitive, sensual, vulnerable and receptive. I am honest, loyal to the truth, can be objective, do well with critical thinking and my communication skills are good. I am willing to compromise and sacrifice and see the value in both
How far will you go in pursuit of happiness, fulfillment and peace? The average, the norm, the bar and the limit have all been set with slight regard to our own story, experiences, thoughts, feelings, beliefs and dreams. If you feel as I do that the world is significantly troubled and disappointing, how much of yourself are you ready to give and how close to the edge are you willing to go in attempting to positively change it? How honest are you able to be with yourself? How much weight, strain, ambiguity, pain, sacrifice and failure are you capable of bearing in the process of parting the essence from the nonsense and the passage of the man that you love? How much does it matter to you that you truly understand anyone or that the world, by and large, will ever ultimately understand and appreciate you
Some of my disappointments suffering and pain include the following
I was abandoned by both of my parents and my only alleged sibling was aborted. Growing up in the California juvenile court system I lived more than two dozen places before I was legally an adult. The violence and emotional, physical abuse that I experienced growing up is almost unbelievable to me. I married the first woman that I believed cared about me and it blew up in my face. My son passed away at age four after a two year battle with cancer. I have had to fight like hell to maintain custody of and a loving relationship with my daughter for more than a decade as her mother and company have attempted ceaselessly to tear us apart from one another. I’ve almost completed a six year obligation to the California Army National Guard and the person who I did it all for has been taught to devalue and dismiss it. I spent a year overseas playing soldier as a surreal self-sacrifice while never received a single letter, care-package or email
As for my weaknesses, transgressions and failures, please don’t hesitate to ask. Since the amount that can be written here is limited I would rather not use it up beating myself over the head, so to speak. Life experience is often referred to as baggage and ignorance is just as often referred to as bliss, but I’ve really come a long way, and have learned a lot and improved myself quite a bit because of my mistakes, wrongs and general fallibility
What I want from you
1.) Put some wind in my sails. Dance around naked a million different times, figuratively and literally, in a billion different colors, in a trillion different ways. Flirt with me constantly and make love to me like the world is ending. 2.) Put me first if I’m worth it. No one has ever put me first. 3.) Give me a genuine second chance at love and happiness.4.) Give me the benefit of the doubt. 5.) Get me off the floor. I haven't owned a bed mattress for very long time. It's complicated
Out of space here. All the best
