I am not sure what to say. I have been through some very interesting and tough times over the last year or so. I spent a year in Baghdad in the military that was very disturbing. now am on deployment in kuwait.I have seen people get blown the fuck up, shot, and maimed. I have feared for my life and lost close friends. I have learned about my own strengths and weaknesses and what is truly important in life. I only wish I did not have to learn it in combat zone. searching is a cliche, I know, but I did a lot of that And I know now that I am better off trying to figure myself out. Not that I have really, but I do know that I wasted lots of time being concerned about pleasing others and keeping up appearances. I thought that just looking happy was enough. I now know that I was wrong.