Maybe it's all the TV I watch, but I constantly feel like a giant man child. I know I'm supposed to save money and look for a wife, but I have a propensity to do the opposite of those things.
That said, I feel like I'm starting to show signs of maturity. I've found myself being in charge of a few projects that require a level of organization that I've never really attempted.
I'm not religious or a health nut, but for lent I've given up eating meat. I'm a really bad vegetarian. One would think my intake of plants would increase by going veggie, but turns out I get a lot of my herbage from side salads with my meat.
Life's been busy lately trying to balance work, snowboarding, and planning an upcoming vacation. I often find myself at someone's house party or a bar, but I have been known to pour some tea, light some candles, and play video games into the wee hours of the morning on a Saturday night.
I try a little too hard for laughs sometimes and when I get nervous, I get even more nervous because I'm trying to hide the fact that I'm nervous.
While I have a ton of friends of varying degrees, I'm trying to figure out why romantically I suck. Maybe I'm afraid of getting to know someone really well because then I feel some semblance responsibility for them and I don't want to let them down. Or...maybe I am scared of connecting with someone where I rely on them for emotional validation because if they don't agree with me in an exposed state I'll be devastated. Or possibly I just don't think I can find a girl that would encourage tomfoolery and shenanigans, because all people in relationships become shells of their former selves or just don't seem to fully reach their potential in life. It's more along the lines that my standards aren't too high, but rather too convoluted and contradictory.
