I'm going to share some very detailed and personal parts of my life here to let a potential "match" have some good insight.
Just in the last two years the, one I fell in love with the most, and at the time would have sworn that I was going to spend the rest of my life with this man and everything wrong in the relatoinship would just work out with time. However, I had no choice but to let him go due to the toxicities that encompassed him; I learned the true definition of bitter sweet. To let you know how much in love I was with this man I overlooked every flaw of his. I truly was the happiest ever when the times were happy (his sweet side). But there was a price that went with that sweet happiness -- dealing with the bitterness of his controlling and manipulating arogancy (cheating also I later learned). I couldn't even fathom cheating on the one I was so in love with, not even in fantasy. I didn't even self satisfy myself but twice. But it was that controlling arogancy of his that made it possible for me to get past many unmerited self esteem and image issues that had been overwhelming, directing, and leading my life. I am finally happy with myself, who I am, and how I look!
I REALLY want to find that TYPE of sweetness (though I'll never reject more sweet than previous), and to be so in love again. But just as important, I want to find another that will be just as much in love with me also! A man that would be willing to go the distance -- each only unconsciously be in a cyclical competition to give back more than just received from the other -- as the love between the two is that strong and growing that fast!
Now for a harsh fact. I am HIV positive. I don't hide that. I live a very healthily life and take my medication (Atripla) every day. I am undetectable and my T-cells are approaching 1500 (above average, even for a negative man). I am allergic to latex (no joke), so I do take preference to another that is HIV positive, on medications and undetectable also, but please don't let that stop you from contacting me if you feel no reservations after having had read my full disclosure above.
As you can tell I love writing. Glad that you have made it this far. I'm actually in the middle of writing a book.
I also am well educated and versed in many fields! I love conversing about things that greatly interest myself, even if it is just to teach someone about something they didn't know and they can listen to me go on an on about how my favorite virus Ebola and why, or how a person may have NATURAL immunity to HIV (rare but fact). Microbiology is my primary educational background and interest. I also LOVE learning, and love to listen to someone tell me about the things I don't have knowledge about just as much. Please don't feel dumbed down and timmid to contact me if you don't have a PhD (I only have 2 AA degrees), I don't feel I'm better than anyone else and don't like someone to feel that way around me. Just be confident in yourself and the knowledge you do have, and the background you are, and we both would be very comfortable in our conversations. One of the things that makes me smile most is a person that takes interest in what I have to say, is confident enough to ask for a more simplistic explination when confusion arises, and more so just to take passion in seeing some of my passions -- that's just one of thsoe feelings that provides great ecstacy unimaginable and difficult to be put into any blackwhite desciption! I love seeing the passions another person has. That's why I will end this asking of someone that will contact me... not to ask what are your interests or your hobbies... but please tell me your passions!