One thing I have learned over the years is although I love my job, it will not be mentioned on my headstone. I wasted so much time working and trying to succeed at having the perfect house, perfect car, perfect clothes that I didn’t realize I was wasting what could be a perfect life. I forgot to stop and remember what I want people to say about me when I’m gone. I want to be remembered as being spontaneous, honest to a fault, always wearing my heart on my sleeve, encouraging, happy & smiling and the best mother to my kids. When I go, I won’t care where I lived, what job I had in 2002 or the car I drove, I will care about the man beside me and the children that made me laugh even when I was crying. Life has thrown me down so many times I’ve lost count but I still stand up and smile, I have to, it’s in my nature. Something better is always waiting for me.
I don’t care if you are rich or poor, heavy or thin, bald or full head of hair, I’m honestly looking for the person on the inside, someone with a nice smile, an optimistic outlook on life and kind eyes, they truly are the windows to the soul. I’m a happy person and you should be too. Don’t get me wrong about the richpoor thing, if you live with your parents or are bankrupt then chances are we do not have the same type of personality. Physical attraction is a given but don’t sell yourself short, 90% of the time someone out there is attracted to you.
If you are they type that feels the need to show off how much money you have or how many toys you own, you are probably insecure or trying to impress me, I will see right through it, don’t bother, I don’t care. I want someone who is my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night. I want to smile every time you text or call. I want to feel like I can tell you anything and everything and I won’t feel dorky or shy when I do. Oh, and you must be able to laugh at yourself, we can all be a little dorky or clumsy at times.
I provide a great life for my children but I do make personal sacrifices to do that, we can’t afford to go out for dinner, so I buy groceries, I don’t go out to the movies, I get them from the $5 bin at Walmart. I’m a budget person, and trust me, every penny is accounted for. I just can’t justify going out to the bar with my girlfriends and then telling my daughter or sons that they can’t have something or go somewhere because I don’t have the money. So if you are looking to split the bill on a date, I would love to but I just can’t afford it at this point, things are looking brighter but I still have a ways to go.
