Of of today (1/26/13), I have two or three weeks left on Match before my subscription runs out. I hope I never have to come back to this venue. I'm looking forward to cancelling this account for many reasons; I've been contacted by nice guys, mean guys, strange guys, and downright scary guys but so much of it boils down to this - YES I get the idea of looking at someone's photo and thinking 'Woo-hoo she's/he's hot - think I'll send a wink or an 'interested' or an email' but PLEASE ! Read the profile and see if it at least matches yours before you send someone three or four emails begging for a reply back!
The soul-searching description I had in here up til this morning did not yield 'The One'. Perhaps it's because I'm still too skittish to date (those who were married to Satan for 13 years who spent the ENTIRE time lying, cheating, and HIDING everything so well, that when you DID finally find out... your whole world crashed and you are barely learning to breathe again) can relate. Or perhaps it's because I didn't make myself clear. So... if I only have 2-3 weeks left on here... let me see how CLEAR I can be.
ME: Skittish (already mentioned), independent (this is scary to controlling jerks), silly, smart, courageous, survivor, adventurous, compassionate, animal-loving, confident, inspired, caring, clever, brave, honest, spontaneous, and grateful. Also, at times, self-deprecating, sarcastic, sharp-tongued, and confrontational. In other words, I love to have fun and I love my friends and family, but if for one second someone thinks they are more entitled than me or my loved ones, or are mean to me or those I love, they will feel my wrath. While I may wear my heart on my sleeve where everyone can see it, that doesn't mean just anyone can touch it. I am not prone to drama, but I will call out anyone that's lying or hurting me or someone I care about. I've learned that it does me no good to think 'This will blow over, so I'll just be quiet.' Perhaps if I hadn't done that 15 years ago, I wouldn't have wasted so much of my life with a monster ... I would have seen the light and who he was much sooner.
YOU: Kind, (especially to animals & children) attractive, in-shape (I don't mean you need to be a tri-athlete, but you should be able to finish a 5k mud run w/ me.) FUNNY and GOOFY (but still hot!), daring, loving, understanding, and able to be ok with being speechless for a few moments when I feel a rant coming on (they are rare... but they happen; usually when I feel like those I love are being wronged, or someone isn't being entirely truthful with me.) You might have a motorcycle, you might have a little facial hair (I like clean shaven and I can't stand the motorcycle gang look, and you might have tattooes. You might like to snowboard and you might not be all that good at it. You love to hike, you think one of the prettiest things ever is our Colo mountains in the spring when the millions of little flowers pop out and the calves are kicking their heels up, but you can't wait til the next time you get to see a beach, a palm tree, the sun blazing in the sky ... and maybe, just maybe, you are on vacation and are lucky enough to have a 'hotel room' that's a hut suspended above azure blue water and 'work' that day is sleeping in the sun and sticking your face in the water to see all the cool fish! You are a million and one other awesome things that I can't wait to learn about! You AREN'T needy, controlling, unable to be alone, prone to lying or cheating, and you aren't missing all your teeth. You don't smoke cigarettes. You don't kill animals for sport only. You are NOT a cop-hater. You've lived a good life and until you find THE ONE.... you aren't settling for sloppy seconds and trying to make something work that won't. You make amends to those you've hurt in the past and you try not to hurt anyone at all.
If you think I'm asking too much...then you are not HIM. :)
