i just canceled my paid subscription for the final time so after 2-4-13 that is it with match.com.....i said that i wasn't paying again this time, but i was intrigued by someone who " favorited me ". Which brings up the question why favorite me then when I send you am email I get no response. Likewise, if I wink at you, you wink at me,then I try to send a normal introductory e mail....just to get no response... not for me.....i stopped playing these games 30 years ago. Which also brings me to my last point....I was a player when I was young, but got married and tried to be the best husband/father that I could be.....It didn't workout..... so what......you live and learn.....water under the bridge......I never expected to be single again at this age.........but I now get treated like all that I have been doesn't matter anymore, and because I am single at my age...I must be a loser that never left home,...or "the 40 year old virgin...".......Not!!!!!!!! ! I don't need this.......
Anyway, now that I have that off of my chest...................what I want is a love story like you like to watch in the "chick flicks"..............it doesn't matter which one, ...........I want my leading lady,I want to click with someone....where you meet someone and just know....I was married once so I know that it shouildn't have to be a daily struggle that makes you feel physically ill to stay together.....where you start to hope for an early death to avoid divorce....maybe that isn't reality....but the hopeless romantic in me still believes its possible....
I live my life by guts, instincts, determination, and faith.......I always say if you are talking to me, and you use the words could have, should have, would have..........don't say them.....we are going to fight....i do what i do,and i don't do what what i don't do.....thats how i live.....
does that mean that i don't compromise, or have to have my way all the time....absolutely not.....i am always open to figuring out what works best for everyone,.....however.....what i cannot stand is 2nd guessing, and scrutinizing every move i make....that will send me away in a heartbeat.....i'm sorry...... with the life i lead, and the job i do, i can't always give you an ironclad guarantee that my plans won't change......they usually change like hockey lines, on the fly...i always try to do the best i can, if that isn't enough for you.....keep looking...
