As a soldier I have been privy firsthand to the intrinsic natural beauty found in the far off corners of this beautifull planet we
inhabit, this and countless human horrors that man perpetuates against himself while fighting foreign wars in far off places. I
have witness humbling acts of self sacrifice. I've seen the cruel acts of a determined foe who recognizes no moral limits that
would restrict him from accomplishing his goals. I have shouldered the weight of sorrow as friends, men I considered brothers,
slipped from this mortal coil before me. I have watched detached from myself as that sorrow was encompassed by the all too
human desire for revenge. I have watched as those we sought to protect were slaughtered and used as a means to strike fear
into the hearts of the innocent. This is modern man, where millions of years of evolution have brought us too. It has shown me
the reality of myself and that of my surroundings. It has however, also served to give birth to an ever deepening resolve to take
advantage of this gift of life, that we all have been given, and forced me to recognize the reality of what was trully important to
me..and the fact that there is a huge disparity between being alive, and living. And this I noticed was something so many of us
don't fully realize. I was encompassed in a cold blanket of fear, merely at the thought of so many of us wasting the only time
we have now on such fruitless endeavors, not only war, or any conflict, but in our lives in general. Fear grips so many, and so
few have the courage to take simple chances, and follow their hearts instead of letting these fabricated insecurities and the fear
of imagined repercussions consume them. After living for so long gripped by the constant anxiety known to those who fight and
die for the beliefs of a nation of people who distance themselves so far away from the bloody reality of their self serving ideals,
I slipped free. The honor, and integrity of so many men and women lost pushing through obstacles they did not belive needed
to be tackled, but had faith in you, and the greater good, at any price, their selflessness compelled me, no it demanded of me to
start living the life that their sacrifices have provided for me. And I did. And I will. Because in my mind their is no fear more
disconcerting than the fear of wasting something so precious, and finite, as life, simply because of the inability to conquer your
own demons. And so now I'm here and I'm looking for an outgoing, opinionated, adventerous woman, who's reckless abandon is
only outshined by her inate sense of compassion, and indifferent sense of humor. Someone with the courage of their
convictions, and who wears their heart on their sleeve for all to see. I whole heartedly believe in concepts like loyalty, honor,
and selflessness. And will give all of myself for thoses around me, without a second thought. My belief in the greater good, like
all things has it's limitations though. As I will stand against you in a heartbeat, should you be someone who seeks to profit from
someone elses misfortune. Someone who only serves their own self interest. Believe me when I say. There is no better a friend,
and no worse an enemy than I. Some have problems with how straight forward I can often be. But I have no reservations when it
comes to speaking my mind. And am often misunderstood by those who can not grasp that some people honestly don't believe
in hidden agendas, games, grudges, or wasting peoples time with pointless lies. I am returning to California to pursue the
Masters degree in Psychology that eluded me quite a few years ago. and during this time I will no longer be on active duty but in a reserve status until completed.
