Ok fine. I've tried being artistic, sensitive, and then funny but I finally will write about myself here. The whole story is far too long to tell here so I'll try to include a some of the interesting and/or important parts. Also allow me to say the following in advance:
- Yes I wrote this and believe these things in my heart
- If you can't believe that good, honest, and thoughtful people are out there I feel sorry for you
- I am looking for a serious relationship with a wonderful woman, I need for her to be serious about it as well
- I will make mistakes, however I will do my best to not repeat them
- I have a tendency to fall for others quickly
- I HATE being led on, lied to, blown off, mislead, or dismissed
I am still growing as a Man, but a man I am. I'm not a 'bro' or just a 'guy'. I have strong beliefs in how a Man should be and do my best to follow these rules: A man takes full responsibility for his actions and all of the consequences that come with it be they good or bad. A Man is only as good as his word, I feel that honesty and loyalty are a big part of what separate Men from guys and bros. A Man is well mannered and respectful. A Man is honor bound to protect any woman in distress. A Man is considerate and open minded, valuing wisdom yet also knowing that decisions need to be made in a timely manner. A Man is humble and sees arrogance as insulting and childish. A Man is learned and aware of both the big picture and the small picture. A Man knows how to truly Love, and would do anything for those he Loves. For when a Man declares that he Loves someone what he means is that he would rather take a bullet than see any harm befall his loved ones. A Man is always family first. A Man has power and does not abuse it.
That all being said I'm still allowed to have fun and take every opportunity to engage in a bit of debauchery. A bit of debauchery every now and then is good for the soul. I am no longer 'shy' and by no means am gregarious (at least not until I get really comfortable with someone). I love music with power, the bass that bypasses my frontal lobe and wires straight from the hind brain to the foot and causes it to stomp in time. Melody must be more complex than a endless repeating 5 second soundbite with electronic noises and beeps occasionally going off. Most importantly for me to consider any song to be music it must stir my soul, even if only a little. It should give me goosebumps in the crescendos and make me unconsciously dance (ok its more like swaying but that's because I don't really know how to dance).
I am looking for someone who makes me smile every time I think of her, who will banter with me but only in good fun. Someone who will laugh with me, play with me, appreciate me, and maybe one day understand me. I am not ashamed to say that I am looking for a woman who is stunning and highly intelligent. Her touch sends sparks racing all over my body and chills go down my back. She is confident and is strong enough to take care of herself, but does not resent it if I try to protect her, help her, or disagree with her. Tall is a plus because I feel really dumb if I have to hunch over/kneel (in extreme cases) to kiss her. She is thoughtful, loves to laugh, learned, and insightful. An open mind and intelligence can make a Lady go from a 7 to a 12 out of 10, I need to be able to have stimulating conversation.
Finally I will say this: If we have a magical time together you cannot simply disappear from me, I can't handle it. You must have the courage to talk with me to my face and explain why you don't want to see me again, I need to know I will not abide being tormented by doubt and worry. Loyalty is what I do best and I expect the same from others. Loyalty is earned, Love is to give yourself completely to another, and a couple has value greater than the sum of its parts.